Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Day 1

In the last seven days, I have quit smoking, started working out and eating better. Too many things on my plate? No such thing, I should be familiar with that.

Reasons to quit smoking

It smells disgusting
It's expensive
It makes my once pearly whites yellow..and not a nice bright or pastel baby yellow, a jaundice baby in an incubator yellow.
Underneath my nails is the jaundice baby colour as well.
The money would be so much better spent on shoes...diamonds...books...
It negatively effects fertility
I rent my place and therefore cannot smoke inside. I also feel kind of weird about smoking in the backyard, so i have to get into my car and go for a drive to smoke. And, I'm really sick of wasting gas and having my car smell like smoke. It's disgusting. Plus, there are bears in the backyard and I don't really feel like being "just right" if you catch what I'm throwing..

So, i went on this drug, Champix (Chantix in the States I think) last Monday and so far it has really cut my cravings down. I had two and a half cigarettes yesterday and only one today, so go me. It's harder for my fiance, because he isn't on the drug, he's using the gum to quit. I'm trying to twist his arm into trying the medication, but so far it doesn't seem like he's too into it.

Reasons to eat healthier/work out

I have a lot of cute work out clothes that I never get to wear
New shoes.
Then I can start conversations with "yeah, last night at the gym" instead of "last night when I was inhaling my cadbury dairy milk and slushee... I decided that Robert Pattinson would definitely date me."
I'm treat myself horribly and it's about damn time I stopped doing so.
My thoughts on my body image and self are really poor and I need to improve those.
My negative self image and low self esteem contributes to about 80% of the problems between me and the fiance.
I don't want to be able to run down the aisle and take off by flapping my arm fat on my wedding day.
I want to be a beautiful bride, not a big one
I want to be strong and healthy and feel great about myself
Eating healthier at home is cheaper than eating out
I'm sick of being told "you have such a pretty face" by my family, in particular my father.

Reasons not to:
French fries are good. Really good.
I have "such a pretty face" what if my body gets hot and I become a butter face?
The trainer at the gym is a bitch, seriously. Yeah so what I'm double your size. You don't need to give me that shocked look on your face you stupid whore. Fat people like me are the reason you have a job. Go eat a bag of chips....and dicks.